Its Dad's Birthday
It was father’s day yesterday. And today is baba’s birthday.
The last time I saw him was fifteen years ago. I saw him gasping for air as his body slowly descended to the ground trying hard to resist the massive cardiac arrest he suffered.
How would my life have shaped up if that fateful day he had not died but recovered? I have often wondered. Were he alive today his hair would be more grey than black. At that time it was just turning grey at the edges.
Mom would still wear red and not say that her life is over. Payel, my sister might also have been alive.
Might have been. Could have been. Should have been.
Failed plans all.
The reality is that he died fifteen years ago. Payel followed five years later. Mom looks grim and her eyes rarely smile. I am anchorless.
Miss you Baba. Happy Birthday!!!
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I lost mine 14 years back and also wonder often if my life had shaped up differently if he were alive. You brought tears in my already damp eyes. Fathers' Day was terrible. May God grant peace to all gone and all those who are left behind.
And sorry for being rude on Polka's blog.
i lost my dad a month back.. still coming to terms with the reality of it all. meanwhile, life moves on.
wherever ur dad is... he'll be looking down upon u. proud of u. :)
BIG hug!
Dear Manpreet,
what can i say, u already share my grief. u are right those of us left behind perhaps need more prayers and good wishes than those departed. Lets continue to support each other.
Thanks Sujoy, and dont worry am not taking offence at the khit pit on Polka's blog. All of us have a right to our opinion.
Dear Rayshma,
a big hug to u darling. I had a hunch ur trip to India wasn't successful but dreaded asking the question.
u r right some wounds never heal...be there for ur mom and siblings and allow ur grief to flow. Remember the beautiful moments shared and thank God for them.
Am there in anyway I can be of help.
**How would my life have shaped up if that fateful day he had not died but recovered?
I always wonder abt that too. Cos my dad died when I was just 16 and he was 44 (his first n last heart attack). I miss him so very much. And sometimes I write abt him in my blog. I'll keep his memory alive as long as Im alive.
Ur tribute to ur dad here is such a lovely and great gesture from a loving daughter. Some ppl forget their loved-ones when they die...but u hvnt. And thats a great thing!
Life is full of strange twists...fate unfolds in front of us, whether we want it or not. Stay strong no matter what.
*HUGZ*
Keshi.
I lost my father the way u did and almost at the same age.The fact that we haven't done to badly without them being physically around shows that their blessings are with us, no matter what.
U wanted to know what happened to my sis...well she committed sucide becoz she couldnt score a first division in her class tenth exams. Incidentally yesterday was also her death anniversary.
Life indeed has strange twists and turns.
thanks for dropping by, its heartening to know that i am not the only one with this grief...there are many who share.
*The fact that we haven't done to badly without them being physically around shows that their blessings are with us, no matter what.
yes, thats so true. Cos w.o. our dads, we cud hv easily fallen apart. But we both did quite well and that proves they're watching over us.
**sis
Im so very sorry to hear that! It must be so v hard for u and ur mum. WOW, what a lot u hv to bear alone. Its a tough life isnt it.
But I can see u hv a deep u'standing of life cos of all these sad experiences and I know u'll be alright with almost any blow in life. Cos u've faced the worst. *HUGZ* TC and know that ur not alone.
Keshi.
yes it was bad, especially for mom. I still had studies and then jobs and friends to fall back on. she had always been a homemaker and suddenly half of that home was not there to be look aftered.
My experiences have taught many a valuable lesson in life thats true.
Thanks for being around.
Keshi.
Your post brought tears to my eyes, life has been hard on you and your mom. I am glad you are writing about it...Hugs to you both.
all of us suffer at different times. its destiny....I love to write and it feels wonderful to know that people like you sitting miles away connect with me even if briefly through it.
Love this blog world its given me some wonderful friends.
hey manpreet.....did the needful dutifully
Hey IHM....thanks for ur visit and ur kind words....
life can sometimes be very cruel and bad....and we have to blame it on destiney and move on....
hugs to both if u...
how can someone called invincible cry?
Thanks for the hugs...some coming back your way...
afterall each one of us is a fighter and survivor in some way or the other
thanks for ur wishes.
Lady, you bring tears in my eyes yaar!!!!! Stay happy dearie and that is all I pray... I just wish that you get back all the love and happiness you missed